Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Believe

I need to believe that there's something more.
Tell me that there's something worth living for.
I know what they say can't be true, that life's it's own reward.
I need to know that there is a god.

I don't wanna lose you.
I couldn't stand the pain.
I don't need the pain after
All that I've been through
But if you're gonna go,
Let it be slow,
Cos I need the chance to say goodbye and to
Tell you that I love you.
If you cut me out it'll cut me up

No one knows about this hole inside of me.
Everyday it eats at my humanity.
I don't want to complain because I don't want them to see
That every day I lose a piece of me.

I want to make it stop but I don't know how.
I wish I could be seen but still be in the crowd.
I want to get help but I don't know where.
Tears flow all the time but no one cares.

I don't wanna lose you.
I couldn't stand the pain.
I don't need the pain after
All that I've been through
But if you're gonna go,
Let it be slow,
Cos I need the chance to say goodbye and to
Tell you that I love you.
If you cut me out it'll cut me up

There's a bunch of things that I'm afraid to tell you.
Don't wanna make it seem like you're nearly through.
I feel like there's a deadline and I don't know when it is.
When will it be our last kiss?

I don't wanna lose you.
I couldn't stand the pain.
I don't need the pain after
All that I've been through
But if you're gonna go,
Let it be slow,
Cos I need the chance to say goodbye and to
Tell you that I love you.
If you cut me out it'll cut me up inside.

-Repeat-

I'm sorry.
I don't want to be
Selfish like them.
I know
That it's my fault
And it's my problem.
I thought that I could deal with it
But I just can't handle it
On my own anymore.
Some things are about me.
This is all about me
I'm sure.
My life is polluted with the
Sins from my past.
I want to hide away.
You can take out the trash
But the smell never really
Goes away.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Haunted

Hidden in the darkness, waiting, watching
Over you. Your body should be mine.
I'm ever present. You see me without knowing that I'm secretly
Stalking, wanting you.

Helpless keening, longing, lusting,
Dreaming without sleeping.
Feeling lonely, getting weaker,
Fading all the time.
These feelings consuming me whole.
There's nothing left of me untouched by you.
I'm haunted.

I want back those times we held each other
Tight. I thought that we had something
Which kept us in each other's hearts but clearly I was wrong.
Without your gaze, without your touch, I'm needing you.

Helpless keening, longing, lusting,
Dreaming without sleeping.
Feeling lonely, getting weaker,
Fading all the time.
These feelings consuming me whole.
There's nothing left of me untouched by you.
I'm haunted.

Those eyes, I always felt were
Penetrating deep into my soul.
You made me feel like I was fat and clumsy when others called me
Graceful angel, but not you.

Helpless keening, longing, lusting,
Dreaming without sleeping.
Feeling lonely, getting weaker,
Fading all the time.
These feelings consuming me whole.
There's nothing left of me untouched by you.
I'm haunted.

I can never have you. I don't deserve you.
I tried to match your wit but always failed.
Maybe this is my punishment, what I was waiting for.
Maybe it was never meant to be.

Monday, June 06, 2005

All Kinds of Things

The suicide diver shatters my sleep.
With her seven floor plunge, I just can't keep
The rising bile from places deep.
My only comfort's my Bailey's seep.
A midnight call seems inappropriate
To a forty year old nymphomaniac hypochondriate
And yet again I hit the liquor cabinet.
This is the price to pay for being an idiot.

I think it's sexy.
My god what does she
Do to make me feel this way?
Playing games with me...

So here I am all alone.
I got what I deserved all along.
I've got to respect you for trying it on
But taming this beast, well it's never been done.
I really tried to be different
But I'm just the same as my nympho parent
And while I long for biceps of cement,
I know we'll never be more than friends.

I think it's sexy.My god what does sheDo to make me feel this way?Playing games with me...

I thought that you were being genuine.
I thought that you were being sincere when
We spent all that time laughin' and dancin'.
Now I know that you were just pretendin'.
Why didn't I see that you were only
Putting it on to try and seduce me?
I know you didn't want to be lonely.
You got what you wanted, now just leave me.
You're not intelligent and you're not smart.
I don't know how you got into my heart,
Playing those games like they're some form of art,
One thing I know it's time for us to part.
I'm glad that you left me all on my own.
Now I don't have to hear you whine and moan.
Abandoned I appreciate freedom.
I hope you're happy now you're all alone.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Mother and Daughter

I look back at how life was.
I understand now you see.
The choices that you made were hard.
You did what was best for me.
Simple yet I didn't see
How tough it must have been for you.
I wish I'd thought to help you with what
You were going through.

The winds of change are blowing
They're tearing us apart
The years will pass us by
But that won't change what's in my heart.
Life was meant for living.
It's what we're built to do.
That truth is everlasting
As is my love for you.

Spoilt and selfish I ignored
The symptoms of your troubled mind.
You still persevered to help me
Put my broken past behind.
You brought us from the depths of depths
To mountain peaks that seemed so far.
You changed our lives for the best.
That's why you are my star.

The winds of change are blowing
They're tearing us apart
The years will pass us by
But that won't change what's in my heart.
Life was meant for living.
It's what we're built to do.
That truth is everlasting
As is my love for you.

La solitude me fait peur.
J'ai pas envie de partir.
J'espère te voir assez souvent mais
J'ai l'impression que c'est la fin pour
Nous.